Handful Thoughts Of Mine

Good Start

2012-01-30T22:53:00.003-06:00

New year new resolution. I just hope that everything goes smoothly.
I am happy with what I have now and I appreciate it very much.
Starting from this semester will be a tough one and obviously, future relies on those classes.
Have to put more and more effort, taking 6 classes is not easy job but I still believe that I can do it.
Because I am Asian and I know it! Sometimes this stereotype is a source of motivation - the dignity.

Enter The Dragon

2012-01-22T00:54:00.000-06:00

Welcome to the year of Dragon. This is the second time that I did not celebrate Chinese New Year at home. Miss the reunion dinner, steamboat with a lot of food. Even though it is usually a simple one, but it feels good to be eating and watching Chinese New Year programs. After that would be fireworks show in my neighborhood.

Listening to Chinese New Year songs on YouTube, trying to make myself dive into CNY ambient.

悲愛

2012-01-11T21:09:00.004-06:00

老蕭很厲害唱

作曲：金培達

填詞：陳少琪

曾經跟你夢想避開了風雨
尋找一個專屬我們的天地
可惜綿綿情意　抵不過天意
也許我的結局　是永遠孤寂

原來我越愛你　越會傷害你
兩個人的身影　是悲哀的距離
只要還在一起　我該怎樣放棄
就讓風和雲相遇　演一場命運悲劇
才發現當天要下雨　後悔莫及

最悲的戀愛　是注定分開
我一直依賴　上天的安排
雪花蒼白　變成塵埃
夢境已經回不來

最悲的離開　是永遠分開
一個人承受　所有的傷害
你是否已化成　孤獨的雲彩
剩下我這一個傷痕累累的心
自由自在

原來我越愛你　越會傷害你
兩個人的身影　是悲哀的距離
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網
只要還在一起　我該怎樣放棄
就讓風和雲相遇　演一場命運悲劇
才發現當天要下雨　後悔莫及

最悲的戀愛　是注定分開
我一直依賴　上天的安排
雪花蒼白　變成塵埃
夢境已經回不來

最悲的離開　是永遠分開
一個人承受　所有的傷害
你是否已化成　孤獨的雲彩
剩下我這一個絕望的心等待

最悲的戀愛　是注定分開
我一直依賴　上天的安排
雪花蒼白　變成塵埃
夢境已經回不來

最悲的離開　是永遠分開
一個人承受　所有的傷害
你是否已化成　孤獨的雲彩
剩下我這一個傷痕累累的心
自由自在

21+

2012-01-10T23:52:00.002-06:00

Thinking of I'm turning to 22 very very soon, something kicked in my mind again. The whole self-review thingy starts to play in my mind. It's time to think again the goal of life, things that I want to achieve and also things that I missed. Realize that as you grow old, the choices become lesser. I am already halfway in achieving the goal, there are not much alternatives to choose from anymore. Once the goal is set, have to go all in, not even have the chance to pick other alternatives, so there are only two possible outcome: excel or totally fucked up. Of course, I'm already half way there and certainly not allowing myself to fuck things up. Keep going on; keep working hard.

Coincidence?

2012-01-04T06:49:00.001-06:00

I had a series of sweet dreams! Need to record this down. Kkk

Till we die

2012-01-04T00:02:00.001-06:00

Incomplete

2012-01-03T23:57:00.001-06:00

Incomplete dreams are always hard to forget.

You do not experience the end of the dreams yourself. The sad thing is that you always wish that the stories would end in the way you like.

You wouldn't forget unless you experienced it. Even though they do not end like expected, but you can always tell yourself that "I tried".

2012

2012-01-01T23:48:00.000-06:00

Happy new year everyone.

It's time for self evaluation again, thinking what you did wrong and what could you do to make it better this year.

I would say last year meant a lot for me, lots of things happened and all the incidents were actually the key that shaped who I am today. I've been through hardship and bitterness, which taught me to think differently and keeping my faith.

Do not forget the past, keep it as memory, as a tool to remind yourself your mistakes.

Thank You Guys

2011-12-29T11:36:00.001-06:00

Hey guys,

Just wanna let you guys know, I DO know getting internship in USA is much better than getting one back at home. Much better pay and also better experience. Come on guys, I know that.

The reason why I would like to do my internship back at home is that I have been here for a year and I would be able to go back after a year and a half. I want to go home, to breath in the hot and humid air. On the other hand, I would like to do something that might help my future career, I don't wanna spend my 3-month summer break doing nothing.

So I came up with this solution which is a win-win situation for me that I can go home as well as gaining work experience. Actually I wouldn't say that doing internship back at home sucks because it is still different experience.

Thank you guys for showing your concerns anyway.

Forget?

2011-12-28T00:25:00.002-06:00

Why forget?
It is still worth put in memory.

Selectively forget/remember?
It wouldn't be complete anymore.

It is a good way, seeing how you changed from time to time.

The Script

2011-12-23T23:42:00.002-06:00

Awesome band. Of course the songs "The Man Who Can't Be Moved", "Breakeven" and "For The First Time" are well known. Should definitely check out their album. These two songs are my favorite as well. Nice to play in guitar too.

Science & Faith

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope

You won't find heart and soul in the stars

You can break everything, down to chemicals

But you can't explain a love like ours.

If You Ever Come Back

I'll leave the door on the latch

If you ever come back if you ever come back

The Awkward Moment when...

2011-12-23T23:32:00.002-06:00

you realize that a post does not have to be long.

Sometimes few sentences are enough.

Those Good Times

2011-12-23T22:24:00.002-06:00

No, it's not transitive.

2011-12-22T12:35:00.000-06:00

A relation is said to be transitive when :

Vertex A has a path to Vertex B and Vertex B has a path to Vertex C but Vertex A does not have a path to Vertex C.

So it's not transitive.

Sorry, too much of studying.

11 24/25 2011

2011-11-27T23:46:00.001-06:00

My first Thanksgiving day in my life. I got no idea what to do for Thanksgiving, never celebrated back at home. The only thing that I know is that they eat Turkey. Never thought Thanksgiving is such a big day for them. Also, only realize that we have so many public holidays back home, benefits of having many different races?

But I'm honored enough to fall sick a day before Thanksgiving, damn it. It's just amazing how people can fall sick after one night. I guess it's because of the drastic change of weather, just like what a local will say, you can never predict Austin's weather. Remembering a joke from friend, " How do people predict how it is going to be in 2020 but not the weather in Austin tomorrow?". We basically 'skipped' Fall and jumped straight from Summer to Winter.

What's next? It's Black Friday! Another big day here, also another day for me to see how strong is the purchasing power of those American. Realizing how consumerism is so tightly related to the society. People just buy because it's cheap, not because they need it. It's just amazing to see how people spend money on shopping and see the difference between people here and my own people, the purchasing power is just way too different. I wonder how much money should we make to spend like an average American.

I'm lucky enough to recover after 2 days. Feeling so much better now. Kinda wasted my holiday to rest and recover, last week of class starting tomorrow and after that, comes the final exams, woohoo. It's 5 in a row this time, awesome! Actually not much to worry about except that one class, it is killing me and I barely passing the class, just hope for the best for that class and I believe I will do well for the rest.

What?

2011-11-17T10:02:00.001-06:00

"Hey bro, are you voting for the coming election?"

"Yea, but I haven't register yet. I'll probably register when I go back home next year."

"What?"

"What what? Problem?"

"So you're not American?"

"No, I'm not, I come here just for college."

"I hear you bro, so where are you come from?"

"I'm from MALAYSIA."

"Sorry, what?"

"MALAYSIA."

"Where is that?"

"South East Asia."

"I got no idea where is that."

"Malaysia is to the North of Singapore and South of Thailand."

"Yea, Singapore and Thailand. I know."

"*sign in heart*"

(Malaysia, why you no more famous?)

Bounded by

2011-11-04T00:21:00.001-05:00

We are all bounded by social norms and values. You might not realize that because you are part of the society at the time you are born.

When people tell you to 'be yourself'. It makes me wonder that do we really can be ourselves? I think, no matter how hard you are trying to 'be yourself', you still bounded by social pressure and values.

Are you really yourself?
Or is the surrounding that shaped what and who you are today?

Most of the time, you do something because the society asks you to do so because everything is defined by a set of values in society and you just have to go with it, otherwise you will be stamped as wrong or anti-social.

Sometimes, you just can't be yourself because the social pressure is so intense that you have to put down yours and go with the majority, just to show that you're part of the society.

We got your back, bro.

2011-10-25T00:31:00.001-05:00

Something bad came up suddenly when I was in library doing my calculus homework. I thought it was only a prank at first but I realize that was no joke after several reasoning based on the past. I am pretty sure that are some serious shit.

Maybe it's not a good time to blog about this now. I wouldn't judge anything because I do not know the whole situation. I remain skeptical to all the information that I heard.

I believe you know what to do to deal with the situation and I know you will solve the problem as soon as possible. We all believe that you will have a solution for it. Do what you think is the best for the whole situation and don't let the criticism make you down.

We know you better than others.
We put our trust in you.
Most importantly, we got your back no matter what.

I'm sure you will be fine.

都那麼久了

2011-10-23T00:52:00.001-05:00

都那麼久了，我還想她。

只想知道，她過得怎樣？

oh wow..

2011-10-22T13:43:00.004-05:00

Wow, good job blogger, my blog is so cool now.
You can pick the type that you want to view.
Keep it clean and simple yet with great effect.
Awesome!

I am back

2011-10-21T01:12:00.001-05:00

Just finished midterm today. And again, I'm still struggling in getting good grades. It's just so much harder to get a good grade here. I feel so bad, I tried my best but often time ended up with a little disappointment. I already put much more time and effort than first semester on my studies and I can see the my hard work pays off.

I was thinking what would happen if I start from freshman year but not transfer student because I would get the chance to start from the easy class, develop necessary skills for harder class. My degree plan was a mess because of credit transfer, I'm in the situation in between where I need to take the basic classes and then jump straight to the hardcore classes. I got credits transferred for the intermediate classes and apparently those transferred credits do not fill up the gap that are required for the upper level classes. Hence the situation is actually pretty tough and I'm glad that I'm still standing with my own two feet, trying to fill up the gap by myself.

Just my little opinions for those who wish to study abroad. Start from freshman year!

如煙

2011-10-13T23:05:00.004-05:00

作曲：石頭填詞：阿信編曲：五月天

我坐在床前望著窗外回憶滿天
生命是華麗錯覺時間是賊偷走一切
七歲的那一年抓住那隻蟬以為能抓住夏天
十七歲的那年吻過他的臉就以為和他能永遠

有沒有那麼一種永遠永遠不改變擁抱過的美麗都再也不破碎
讓險峻歲月不能在臉上撒野讓生離和死別都遙遠
有誰能聽見

我坐在床前轉過頭看誰在沈睡
那一張蒼老的臉好像是我緊閉雙眼
曾經是愛我的和我深愛的都圍繞在我身邊
帶不走的那些遺憾和眷戀就化成最後一滴淚

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚能洗掉後悔化成大雨降落在回不去的街
再給我一次機會將故事改寫還欠了他一生的一句抱歉

有沒有那麼一個世界永遠不天黑星星太陽萬物都聽我的指揮
月亮不忙著圓缺春天不走遠樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉
有誰能聽見

耳際眼前此生重演是我來自漆黑而又回歸漆黑
人間瞬間天地之間下次我又是誰

有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰永遠不凋謝永遠驕傲和完美永遠不妥協
為何人生最後會像一張紙屑還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

有沒有那麼一張書籤停止那一天最單純的笑臉和最美那一年
書包裡面裝滿了蛋糕和汽水雙眼只有無猜和無邪讓我們無法無天

有沒有那麼一首詩篇找不到句點青春永遠定居在我們的歲月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋笑忘人間的苦痛只有甜美

有沒有那麼一個明天重頭活一遍讓我再次感受曾揮霍的昨天
無論生存或生活我都不浪費不讓故事這麼的後悔
有誰能聽見我不要告別

我坐在床前看著指尖已經如煙

詞寫得太好了！

Phew...

2011-10-08T11:07:00.001-05:00

Wooo, finally got done with busy weeks. One more exam left and hopefully it won't be hard. I think that's the main different between US and MY education system. There are a at least 3 exams including finals and each contribute large percentage to final grade. MY? only 1 midterm plus final and the midterm is only 10 percent in the 20 percent of coursework. Basically if you screwed up your coursework, did well for final, you're still good. That is how they force you to study and do homework. In conclusion, it's just DIFFERENT.

I'm halfway through the Fall semester now, time really flies here because you constantly have work to do, so you just won't realize how fast the time has passed. Here, we play hard and study hard, it is no surprise that the weekend is so important for them because they've been working hard on the weekend. Unlike previously, I always slacking, it's ok not to do anything, weekend is just like weekdays, can play whenever you feel like to. Ahhh, seriously miss that kind of college life, I don't want to be stressed out all the time. Well, I guess I have to take it as a training, to develop time management skill and prioritization.

Also, I started to understand you really need to work very hard to excel. I wouldn't say that I did not put effort back in MY, I have to put extra effort doing the same thing because people around you is better than you. Not to compare those who are born to be smart-ass but comparing people around me, I am really amazed by the time they spent on their studies and anything else related to the class. They do read and research to find out more, but we MYians, our education systems shape and build us to be exam robot. The purpose of education is not to help gain knowledge but to tackle the exams. I'm not sure this is true for all the high school but it certainly works that way in my high school.

Now I see, the key point of studying abroad is not just simply just live in different surrounding, it is the process that make you realize the difference with your own culture and then blend good things from both side and finally shape your own understanding about the world. That is what makes studying abroad valuable, I'm glad that I am given this chance to gain the experience that not everyone can afford to gain.

Thank you!

Infinite Desire

2011-10-02T00:06:00.000-05:00

A very hard thing to learn - satisfaction.
You always want more than what you have now.
Never stop, never end.
That's the source of suffering, just like what the Buddha says.
It is so true, no desire = no suffering.

Breathe

2011-09-25T00:29:00.003-05:00

Phew, just a lil crappy updates.

Time to stop for a while and take a deep breath from my busy schedule. Man...this semester is so much different from last semester. Started to take upper division classes, homework is intense, basically I spend most of my time doing homework in school but I kinda get used to it that doing homework during weekend. Well, it's good to try to make myself busy, try to fill up my time with something so that the time seems to pass faster. No time to think about anything else besides school work.

Of course I'm not gonna be a nerd, study whole day. There is one thing that I found myself improved is my social network. I tried to extend my social network by joining some associations and get to know a lot of new friends and trying to impress them by telling that I am from Malaysia. Yea, that's how patriotic I am. Other people basically do not know anything about Malaysia and my job is to impress them being a Malaysian, typically our language skills. We should be thankful that we are born in a country of multilingual and culture. You will find out how hard is it for a people of monolingual to learn other languages and cultures while we are like born with at least 3 languages.

Appreciate and don't complain.

Fall 2011

2011-08-22T13:25:00.000-05:00

Class starting in 3 days time, so sad that I have only 1 week of summer break. Fall semester is coming soon, this is going to be a really busy semester, 5 classes and the workload is pretty heavy. Plus I might need to find a part time job too, damn, I'm too poor to survive here. ㅠ_ㅠ.

Feels like I'm under-performed all the time, or maybe I'm just too lazy to spend time on studies. I know I can do better but there are still something that hold me back, making me unmotivated. I think the next stage I will be in is the searching of that 'something' and try to kill them off. I am just not as ambitious as before, now the only thing that I wanted is to survive in school, hardly think of being excellent here, I'm just not motivated enough to push myself further away. Maybe the drastic fall of grades shattered my confidence towards myself and I'll still on my way to put those pieces of me back together. I know I can do that, but the matter is WHEN?

Oh ya, I moved to new apartment. Thanks for the help from friends, otherwise it would be crazy to move stuffs under 41 degree celcius. I like my new room very much! Clean and new, feels like hotel. Friendly roommates. But the soundproof is pretty bad. There is a sorority house right opposite my window, I can hear their chant and sing for hours during the rush. Hopefully they won't have much party going on there weekend so that I can sleep without hearing drunk people shouting. But still I like my room. Glad I made the right choice.

I think this is the first time I upload my room's photo. The reason is simple, previous 2 places were just sucked.

pretty big closet for me

left

right

place i spent most of my time

lil drawer

putting an instrument in room magically makes the room classy

End of Summer

2011-08-18T19:25:00.000-05:00

I seriously think that the time here passes much faster than Malaysia. It's now the end of my Summer and Fall semester is starting next week. Next semester is going to be a challenging one, no more excuses for not doing well. I guess I am kinda back on track after my Summer semester, hopefully will get better and better in future.

End of semester, it's time to move again. Kinda tired of moving already. I've been moving 3 places a year. Finally a place that is pretty good and will stay for the next whole year.

I actually like to pack my things up. I like it because I feel good to see all my stuff being nicely put into boxes, arranged and organized into categories. Not only that, it feels like a way to remind you of the past. Looking at those boarding pass, visa form and angpow that my mom gave me before arrive here, remembering the farewell scene with family and friends. Looking at the homework for my first semester, remembering the things first few months living at this place. Looking at the boarding pass, thinking of the trips to Cancun and West Coast with friends. Reading the birthday card, scarf, shirt and the pink hanger which is so obvious among all other white ones that I received, recalling the time where we used to be so close. Moving house is like a memory refresh, reminding how I get here, what happened in between, which places I visited and many other stuff.

I like to keep all my stuff that has memories and meaning tied to them. When you see them, you know who you are during that time, recall and makes you realize how have you changed. At least they act as a reminder to remind you that you once have those experiences in your life.

Fairy Tale?

2011-08-07T00:00:00.002-05:00

We are born in the world, listening to lots of beautiful stories, fairy tales, because that's just human nature. Everyone likes happy ending, everyone likes beautiful matters, tangible or intangible. Kids are told fairy tales because they are born pure, not knowing the reality of the world, the ugly truth. Beautiful things make us feel good and give us some kind of temporary runaway from the reality.

Even fairy tales reflect the reality of the world, notice that the typical setting of those tales, a beautiful poor little girl married a cool good looking prince and live happily ever after. Who is a prince? Son of the King -> top in social hierarchy -> rich. So as the prince wouldn't kiss the sleeping beauty if she is a sleeping 'ugly'.

However, beauty is very subjective, she might appear ugly for others but is an angel for you. There's is always someone for you, no worries. There is one special thing, LOVE, for some reason when you're in love, you just fall into your own fairy tale. You believe in your own tale, try to do everything that is 'supposed' to be fairy. Because you know fairy tale is always happy so you would do anything to make sure your story is written in the fairy tale way.

Truth hurts but lies worse. It is still better to realize that how realistic this world is instead of flooding your mind with those unrealistic stuff. But once again, you just can't control when you're in love, that's just how it is.

Everyone wants to be pretty

"How do you expect kids to listen to their parents when Tarzan lives half naked, Cinderella comes home at midnight, Pinocchio lies all the time, Aladdin is the king of thieves, Batman drives at 200 mph, Sleeping Beauty is lazy, and Snow White lives with 7 guys. We shouldn't be surprised when kids misbehave, they get it from their story books."

Inspired by SMOSH

100th

2011-07-28T00:00:00.001-05:00

Today is the deadline, it's time to really move on.

It's just like ecdysis for the past 100 days,

new skeleton was formed because you need to grow.

Bigger and stronger skeleton is needed for your growing tissues.

However, the process isn't an easy task,

imagine the time where you're still with the old skeleton and you're growing at the same time,

everything squeezes inside,

every single cell is struggling for space,

that doesn't feel good.

After some time,

new skeleton forms gradually and old one will shed slowly,

now you have space for your growing body,

stronger, bigger and harder than ever.

99th

2011-07-27T00:31:00.003-05:00

99 days, I allocated myself this duration for me to walk out from the shadow,

trying to leave it behind and move on.

It might be just an excuse but I just couldn't make it in short time,

and it's because time is still the best cure.

I tried hard not to recall anything from the past.

I tried to convince myself that the past can never be undone.

I tried to make myself busy so that even a second of past will not run into my mind.

I tried to live without someone to count on.

I tried to tell myself that I am not the I that I was.

I tried everything to make myself better.

I don't know why, for the first time, it is so intense,

probably because of living thousand miles apart by oneself makes one weaker.

I told myself, the 100th day will mark a new starting point.

Starts from scratch, push myself as far as I can go,

and I shall freeze the memories and bring them with me six feet under.

Sorry for being an asshole during that time,

I might do something that are irritating,

brought you troubles unintentionally,

hopefully not.

Please forgive what I've done,

keep me in memory and leave out all the rest.

Even though you're facing your back to me,

someday if you're willing to turn your back and look around,

if you see me, show me your smile like you always do,

if you don't, keep walking down your path.

It would be the last tear dropped for you today.

Thank you for choosing to share the memories.

What IF...

2011-07-23T23:50:00.000-05:00

Spending quite some time to think about my life for the past few days, from the moment I still able to recall until current. It's just weird, this idea came out of sudden, I guess it's the time, being an adult, after fooling around for 20 years, perhaps it was already too late to realize at this time, but it's alright because it's just like everyone reaches puberty at teenage and reaches maturity at the adult age. Everyone reaches puberty at different time, so as the maturity.

Many IFs came to my mind. Yes, you might know that I think a lot, sometimes too much. I would think of any possibilities given a situation, then think of the solutions, so that I am ready and know what to do when the situation strikes. Maturity is hence the way you formulate the solutions and the solution used and but not the way you think of the possibilities.

What IF I choose to stay locally, continue my journey being a better than average student and probably graduate with better than average grade while forgoing the opportunity to step on a complete strangers land, being an 'average' student and got no idea how would it be in future?

What IF everything ended up with disappointment?

What IF all ended up different from what are expected?

It is not always good to think positively, you need negative thinking to keep you moving, making sure that you do not fall into the worst case scenario and you need positive thinking to tell you when to stop, not pushing yourself too hard and learn how to satisfy. Don't worry, I am not being depressed here.

干净2.0

2011-07-22T09:28:00.000-05:00

妳～

收得干净

我也只有～

不留一点痕迹。

Step back and watch

2011-07-19T19:49:00.001-05:00

Step back, calm and watch the whole incident,
from third person view,
analyse and ask "was that suppose to happen?".

YES? move on!
NO? come back!

不得不分享

2011-07-18T17:25:00.003-05:00

1，记住该记住的，忘记该忘记的。改变能改变的，接受不能改变的。
2，能冲刷一切的除了眼泪，就是时间，以时间来推移感情，时间越长，冲突越淡，仿佛不断稀释的茶。
3，怨言是上天得至人类最大的供物，也是人类祷告中最真诚的部分。
4，智慧的代价是矛盾。这是人生对人生观开的玩笑。
5，世上的姑娘总以为自己是骄傲的公主（除了少数极丑和少数极聪明的姑娘例外）。
6，如果敌人让你生气，那说明你还没有胜他的把握。
7，如果朋友让你生气，那说明你仍然在意他的友情。
8，令狐冲说"有些事情本身我们无法控制，只好控制自己。"
9，我不知道我现在做的哪些是对的，那些是错的，而当我终于老死的时候我才知道这些。所以我现在所能做的就是尽力做好待着老死。
10，也许有些人很可恶，有些人很卑鄙。而当我设身为他想象的时候，我才知道：他比我还可怜。所以请原谅所有你见过的人，好人或者坏人。
11，鱼对水说你看不到我的眼泪，因为我在水里．水说我能感觉到你的眼泪，因为你在我心里。
12，快乐要有悲伤作陪，雨过应该就有天晴。如果雨后还是雨，如果忧伤之后还是忧伤．请让我们从容面对这离别之后的离别。微笑地去寻找一个不可能出现的你！
13，死亡教会人一切，如同考试之后公布的结果——虽然恍然大悟，但为时晚矣~！
14，你出生的时候，你哭着，周围的人笑着；你逝去的时候，你笑着，而周围的人在哭！一切都是轮回!!!! 我们都在轮回中!!!!
15，男人在结婚前觉得适合自己的女人很少，结婚后觉得适合自己的女人很多。
16，于千万人之中，遇见你所遇见的人；于千万年之中，时间的无涯荒野里，没有早一步，也没有晚一步，刚巧赶上了。
17，每个人都有潜在的能量，只是很容易:被习惯所掩盖，被时间所迷离,被惰性所消磨。
18，人生短短几十年，不要给自己留下了什么遗憾，想笑就笑，想哭就哭，该爱的时候就去爱，无谓压抑自己。
19，《和平年代》里的话：当幻想和现实面对时，总是很痛苦的。要么你被痛苦击倒，要么你把痛苦踩在脚下。
20，真正的爱情是不讲究热闹不讲究排场不讲究繁华更不讲究嚎头的。
21，生命中，不断地有人离开或进入。于是，看见的，看不见了；记住的，遗忘了。生命中，不断地有得到和失落。于是，看不见的，看见了；遗忘的，记住了。然而，看不见的，是不是就等于不存在？记住的，是不是永远不会消失？

I Moved On

2011-07-16T12:07:00.001-05:00

Sia sia sudah
Kita jalin cinta
Bila hati selalu berbeda

Sampai kapan lagi
Ku harus menahan
Rasa kecewa di dalam dada

Seandainya kita masih bersatu
Tak mungkinkan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta
Biarkan saja berakhir sampai
Di sini

Tiada lagi yang ku harapkan
Tiada lagi yang ku impikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa diri mu

Tiada lagi kata cintaku
Takkan lagi ku bersama mu
Biar ku simpan semua
Kenangan ku bersamamu…

I moved on.

Thanks for the memories.

what's wrong with me

2011-07-09T11:24:00.001-05:00

why am i keep doing silly things?
that was so embarrassing,
that was so immature,
not something that should be done by a 21 year-old dude,
but i just did it.
crap~apparently i just made things worse.

it's a point of no return,
either end up with crap or shine bright.
full of passion but something is holding me back,
motivated but powerless.
it's a shame, a man with no dreams, no targets.

it's the time to readjust the priority,
it's the time to readjust the weight,
it's the time to search for new identity.

time to back to reality,
i'll beat the crap out of anyone that stops me.

Enough~

2011-07-02T23:38:00.001-05:00

All by myself,
to the land of liberty,
land of freedom,
land of fantasy,
with passions.

But things seemed do not work out the way I thought,
the situation makes people weaker,
struggle to survive in this foreign land,
carrying the burden from the homeland.

The experiences are far more valuable than education,
it's a huge challenge that trains your heart and soul to be stronger.
Sorry for the disappointment.

I need to

stop doing stupid things,

stop thinking silly things,

stop making things worse,

stop screwing things up.

Wake up and get back on track,

keep moving forward and stop looking back,

learn how to swim and not to get drown.

I've lost my determination and motivation,

it's time to grab them back and break the bottleneck.

파이팅!

Karma?

2011-06-15T17:38:00.001-05:00

Do you believe in karma?

What caused in the past will be returned with effects.

I didn't even give a damn for that until few days ago,

Recalling my past relationships, makes me thinking of karma with a helpless smile.

Once I was the cause and now I am being struck by the effects.

But it was just so true, so real.

I understand,

time in between doesn't mean anything,

who cares about that when the right person pops up.

I thought I already let go,

somehow the pain is still there,

just not as intense anymore.

Time will tell; Time will heal.

Question is, how long does it still need to take?

Is there any catalyst to boost up the recovery?

The lady once mine,

now went to his mind.

Perhaps I shouldn't ask...

Summer

2011-06-05T23:45:00.000-05:00

Spring semester ended, 5 months just passed,
remembering the first month I was having hard time, screwed up all the tests.
Luckily it got better but it was too late to replace the screwed-up tests.
First semester result? Better than I expected but still not satisfactory.
It's alright, do better next time.

Went to West Coast for a 2-week trip,
it was fun and tired, had a great time with my friends,
also a farewell trip, as they are going back to their own country.
Take care my friends! We will meet again soon. It was great to meet you guys.
I never knew the benefits of being able to speak several languages until I met you guys.

Summer school starts tomorrow,
learnt the mistakes from last semester and hopefully improve this time.

Priority Queue

2011-04-24T13:03:00.001-05:00

life is all about choosing path that you want.

you live your life and choose your path based on what you want to be.

when it comes to decision making,

there is no way that you can have win-win situation every time.

everyone has their own priorities in mind,

and the priorities change from time to time,

thus you forgo something that are in low priority,

when you come to a time,

where no two paths can be chosen at once.

don blame if you are being forgone,

understanding that everyone has different needs,

bless instead of blame,

and you'll feel better.

you'll be pleased to see,

being forgone is not that bad after all,

when you realize that,

being forgone make them happier.

~just give me you smile~

What else can I do?

2011-04-14T00:35:00.000-05:00

I never thought the day will come that early, the day that I am afraid of...

out of sudden, it just came.

You said I've changed and I swear I didn't.

It's just the situation that we are in now makes everything extra sensitive.

Once again, I defeated by DISTANCE, no matter how hard I try.

All the promises turned into ash in just a second.

I still can't believe we are defeated by distance that easy.

I know I couldn't make it be your side when you needed me, but what about me?

I have lots of things to be shared but now, I'm all alone, all by myself.

I've lost everything, the only thing left is the shattered heart.

Listening to our songs, it is now meaningless with a hole in my heart and mind,

filling the hole with tears, it's painful but...what else can I do?

我的‘衫’依然‘掛’在你給我的衣架，可是我想我的‘衫’已經不配你的衣架了。

Just go with your heart, I can't stop your from making up your mind,

if you think it is good for you, then just go without turning your head back.

I'm still loving you.

I Was Thinking About Her

2011-03-26T14:51:00.000-05:00

Every time I think of her,

I feel guilty, sorry, because I couldn't do anything when she, on the other side,

struggling with homework, not in the mood, lonely, upset, disappointed, angry.

Every time I think of her,

I feel sorry that I can't be with her with she needs me.

While me on the other side, just can't do anything, watching her struggling.

Every time I think of her,

The only way to fill my emptiness is to go to her Facebook, browse through her photos, thinking of things we've been gone through together, sometimes accompanied by tears, even though those are happy moments.

She's the girl that can make me cry, yes she is.

Need You Now

2011-03-23T12:15:00.001-05:00

"It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now..."

My babee leo,

I know it's the middle of your semester over there and certainly, you must be very busy with your school work. No matter how busy you are, please take good care of yourself. Don't stress out yourself, take a few minutes of rest and continue your work.

Okay, you are a grown up girl, should know how to take care of yourself and I should not nag you all the time.

Do you know? We have not been chatting for more than a week! And I am missing you like crazy now. Hope that we can finish our schoolwork and chat until fall asleep in front of the webcam.

Thank you for your birthday present, and I made it as profile picture. I like the clothes very much!

Cancun is a nice place, the weather makes me feel like I'm back in Malaysia besides Malaysia is more humid than Mexico. I got sunburn on my back and the skin is peeling off now, luckily it is now that pain and I am not that dark that I was expected.

There is beautiful beach, when I saw the beach, the first thing that came up my mind was you because I know you like to be at the beach. Of course the next thing was the moment where we spent our time at the beach. I really really wish that we can do that all over again. T.T

I was actually able to reach Austin at 12PM on Monday but again, I was stuck at Houston Airport Customs. Damn it! I really hate that I am holding Malaysia passport, Islamic country doesn't bring any benefits in America, they retained me for 2 hours and I missed my flight because of that. I was thinking to attend my Mathematics class but I couldn't. Skipping class is really a bad idea because if my friend didn't tell me that there is a test on this coming Friday, I would never know and I am done!

I thought I can still relax for the first week after the Spring break but I was wrong, there is a test on Friday and three assignments due next week! Gotta switch to study mode again, no time to be lazy.

Hey babee, you know what, it's 24th today! It's our big day! :-)
Well, what else can I say?

I LOVE YOU

Words can't say what my love can do.

Momento Power

2011-03-10T00:51:00.000-06:00

Spring break is coming! Can't believe I've been here for 2 months! and I am turning 21 already! I will be an adult few days after.

Worst thing is, I have an exam on my birthday and it's the course that I fear the most!

It was a tough 2 months, struggling to adapt new environment, doing everything all by myself.

However, no matter how tough the situation is, there is always an energy that push you forward, give you the motivation to go forward and that's the momento power.

Now I realize that the importance of having someone filled in your heart, lover, friends and family. Whenever I feel suffocated, thinking of them and remembering all the moments spent with them, I feel much much better and somehow motivated, telling myself not to give up because there is always someone backed you up, supporting you from the other far end.

Letter For You

2011-02-27T19:10:00.003-06:00

Babee,

How are you over there? I am so boring and lazy today. Even though I have a test on tomorrow, I didn't start study until after watching Running Man. Haha.

It was a lonely lunch with Running Man, miss the time that we were enjoying McD and watch Running Man together. I wonder when I will have the chance to do that again. But I am sure that it will be soon because time really passes so fast.

Being afraid of fail the test, finally I started to study and I realized that it was already too late, I won't be able to finish reading the book today. What should I do now? I started in my room and moved my ass to the place that I told you before. The beautiful place in one of university. I couldn't study in my room because it's just too noisy over there and my ass doesn't feel comfortable with the shitty chair. There are really cozy couch here, I would probably take my afternoon nap next time here. Haha.

It's 7PM already and I only finished 4 articles. T.T

But nothing is more important than filling up my stomach, it's dinner time, what should I eat for today? I'm getting bored with the food here. I definitely will start to cook when I move to the apartment next semester.

Look at this place, it's so awesome at night and I love the light here!

Gonna go to library later, here is not a good place to study, it's too dark here.

Hope to hear from you soon! Love you.

The Differences

2011-01-24T00:09:00.001-06:00

I've been here for 3 weeks! and also my first week of class.

The first week was really a mess and busy. Went to meet my adviser regarding my credit transfer, and thank god I do have some credits transferred! And I also drop one course because 3 courses that need intense reading is just not for me. I hate reading.

I was so excited to get up and get prepared for my first class here in UT.

I lost in campus, god damn it UT is so huge and I cannot find the name of the block from the map.

The study environment here is so much different from Malaysia. I was shocked that final exam is only 20%, homework contributes the rest of the course.

The other thing is that students here are so active in class, they like to raise their hands and give their comments which we can see in Malaysia nobody give a damn to lecturer. And basically, students in Malaysia hate student who involve actively in class.

The second week is starting tomorrow, hopefully everything is going smoothly.

Awesome Austin

2011-01-08T22:33:00.001-06:00

Hey friends, I am now in United States.
I know it's kinda rush and do not have much time to meet all of you guys, sorry for that.
Don't worry, I am absolutely fine here and pretty like this place, at least, it is better than I am expected after hearing people around me telling me that this place is @#$%^&*
Thanks for the help from Malaysian students here also, thanks for their kindness for being welcoming me here by having dinner together and share some experience with me.

When I reached here, I was busy with my hostel matters, hence I couldn't post an article here even though I wish to. I was busy buying stuff that I need, clearing all my 'bars' that prevent me from registering the class, attending activities for international student and exploring this area.

My university is just way larger than what I thought! I think I should call it a city but not a university. Basically, I think I am not be able to visit all the blocks/building in the university. The facilities here are just awesome as well, there is a bowling center here in the campus, that is what I really amazed.

I appreciate blessings from family and friends, thanks for everything that allow me to stand a chance to come here. I will do everything with my best effort and not to disappoint you all, well, hopefully so.

LET'S DO IT!

Berjaya Hills

2010-10-12T10:33:00.000-05:00

We had a wonderful trip last weekend even it is only 2D1N.
It's Berjaya Hills, or maybe better known as French Village.

The temperature there was not as cold as I thought,
but it was just nice, not too hot or cold.

The room was awesome! it's a little bit too large for only both of us.
I think the room should be able to fit 15-20 people.

It's a small place with all French buildings,
it was really really nice and beautiful there,
but it is kinda small as it is only a street with buildings at both sides.

It's a perfect place if you want to relax for a couple of days.
Not advisable for those who is looking for exciting outdoor activities.
If you like photographing, then you should probably check out that place too.
There is also a Japanese Village.

Food? I would say the best one is the breakfast provided by the hotel.
There are lots of restaurants and they are all French cuisines.
Maybe we are not used to the taste and I actually think that the food is not very nice.

I love spending time with my babe.

sorry babe

2010-09-20T22:58:00.000-05:00

I hate myself living in this kind of old school environment,

I thought the society now should be open minded enough to accept new things.

Precisely it is now any new things, it's a norm for now.

Why are there still people like that around me?

And worse is that, they are actually at the same age as me.

I started to think, is it really we had gone too fast or they're too old school?

Babe, I'm sorry that your have to hear all the gossip out there.

I know you must be annoyed when hearing all this from your friends.

Few weeks ago, someone was trying to back stab me,

I can't believe that this will happen to me.

Perhaps it was really my fault,

or maybe I didn't end the previous relationship good enough

and resulting in this kind of situation.

Once again I am sorry that I made you going into that situation.

But I'm lucky enough to have clarifications and finally,

everything is over.

cancer

2010-09-03T23:39:00.000-05:00

She cried,
the first thing that came into my mind,
must be that 'something' that made her cry.

I felt guilty for that.
Since I have chosen not to miss the chance and person,
so, I'm responsible for that.
I did not mean to hurt her,
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold my feeling at that moment
and brought both of us to this situation.

Our relationship is just like cancer.
basically, you know when are you going to die if you have cancer.

The possible known-death-time of ours is not the question here,
it is how are we going to treat this cancer and then live a meaningful life.
You can either give up the treatment or continue.
Certainly giving up is not allowed to be chosen here,
because I do not want to end this without giving it a try.
Who knows that the situation might change at the end?

better together

2010-08-31T10:21:00.000-05:00

Alex is in relationship now,
A for Alex and B for Bernice.

Maybe some of you may think that alex is a bad guy,
can bump into relationship again since the previous one was like only few months ago.

Yea, I am never afraid of being in love again.
You cant stop once the feeling comes,
when you meet the right person at the right time,
that's it!!! there's nothing else you can say.

It is always better that you give it a try than sitting there and do nothing,
even though it fails at the end,

at least both sides had tried their best in the relationship;
at least both sides knew that their are not the right person;
at least both sides learned how to live by putting the other in first priority;
at least both sides received love and care given by each other;
at least both sides share common memories, no matter good or bad, they are still worth kept in your mind.

As long as we cherish every relationship,
what's wrong with that?

This makes me recalled my previous article
The Love Curve

alex..you ada apa masalah..

2010-08-11T02:52:00.000-05:00

"alex, you ada apa masalah? nampak sedih sedih saje"

"hmm? tak ada apa"

"jangan tipu, alex. saya degree in psychology, saya tau u ada masalah"

"...."

"ok, saya bagi nombor telephone saya. kalau alex rasa nak bagitau saya,sms la saya"

"okok"

thats some of the conversation during the consultation hour,

to be honest, i was facing zero problem at that moment.

so, at the end, i did not text him because i simply do not have any problems with me.

now, few weeks later, when all the tests, assignments and assessments come.

i started to realize that, hell yea, now i know what is the problem.

my performance keeps going down, it is not that easy as last time already.

i must have done something to maintain my performance and hopefully, better than before.

perhaps, i do not get used to this new academic environment yet,

or else, i have to admit that, yea, i'm dropping!

alex..

where the heck is your motivations?

where the heck is your passions?

come on, come on

unleash the power that you never experienced before.

busy weekend

2010-08-02T12:27:00.000-05:00

Oh yea, finally I can go home since convocation.

Feels good to be home, wondering when will be home next time.

Okay, first is the National Service Gathering.

It has been 2 years we left Kem Tasoh,

and that was the first time to have gathering,

thanks to Hooi Hooi for organizing.

The best part would be recalling all the moments,

talking the best and the worst part during that time.

At the end, we felt tired at 4am.

So, that's the ending for the gathering.

The next day, hmmm.

Made an appointment to perm my hair.

Saloons are always like that,

they promised to give you the hair style that you wanted,

but it always ended up with disappointment.

My curly hair for this time,

well..I would say,

it's a total failure.

I don even know how to set my hair right now,

it's just..terrible..(T.T)...

The worst thing is I spent 3 hours sitting there

and I didn't get what I want.

OK..fine..will find him next time.

In the afternoon, went to 'wash' my face,

yea..you know..thats the aftereffects of eating too much junk food..

and I wonder, why is it call 'wash' as

it is so so so pain! and my face is now full of scars..

another (T.T)..

Then spent the rest of the day staying at home,

because I just can't go out with the face.

Next day, went to studio to pick photos.

At the end, I only picked 3 more because basically,

my mom had all of it printed out.lol

I can feel the pride of being a mother

to have her family photos especially her children hanged on the wall.

Headed to pacific next and it's my happy hour,

it's the time I can grab all the things that I wanted

without budget.

Again, I grabbed a lot of biscuits and snacks as well

but this time, more biscuits, less snacks.

Ahhhh

it's 6PM already, time to go back to my 'lovely' Kampar.

Given that...

2010-07-30T00:08:00.003-05:00

Given that:

y = 1314 - x,

where x = 794,

find Y.

Given that:

All birds can fly,

penguin is a bird,

therefore?.

Given that:

The duration of your love is known,

will you still accept the love offered?

Given that:

All the things you wished with known outcome,

and the outcome is not what you are expecting for,

but you know there are chances to change and lead you to the expected outcome,

will you give up your wish or go for it?

fAmILy

2010-07-26T04:11:00.000-05:00

Convocation may mean nothing for some of you,

especially it's only a Diploma level.

What's the big deal?

Yes! It's a big deal.

The convocation not only marks the end of my pre-U studies,

but also as an award for myself to be able to complete the course after 2 years of hard-work.

Thanks Vick, for the photo.

I'm fortunate enough to be awarded with a Book Prize,

and I'm totally honored to receive the award as well.

At least, it is a BIG fruit for my 2 years of hard-work.

Thanks mama, for the flower.

Besides that, the convocation actually brings my family one step closer.

I feel great to have the whole family for a photographing session.

That was the first time ever we had a family photographs!

The photos are going to be the most valuable assets of my family

and shall be kept deep inside our heart eternally.

这是我的家，在‘大’山脚下；
门前有棵‘柳叶’树，又种很多花；
爸爸在工作，妈妈打理家；
我们兄’妹‘多和气，我爱我的家；
这是我的家，我爱我的家！

TIPU

2010-07-24T10:51:00.002-05:00

Ya(cinta itu pedih)untuk orang yang patah hati.

Bekas wanitaku,panggilkan namaku dan aku sangat bosan akan lagu-lagu cinta.

Ya benci akan lagu-lagu cinta.Kenangan-kenangan kami…Dusta!

Suatu malam ketika hujan sedang turun.

Aku telah membawamu ke dalam kenanganku.

Aku berjanji kepadaku bahawa aku masih dapat hidup dengan baik tanpamu,tetapi aku tidak dapat melakukannya.

Aku mengambil minuman keras yang tidak dapat aku menangani untuk mengisi kekosongan jiwaku.
Sehari tanpamu merupakan hari yang sangat panjang untukku.Aku berdoa agar aku dapat melupakanmu(semua itu dusta).

Tanpamu,tiada kebahagiaan dalam hidupku.Aku tidak dapat menitiskan air mataku.Aku tidak mahu hidup lagi.

Ya,semua it karut,ini telah mengelamuniku.Fikiranku kusut dengan bayangan-bayanganmu.Aku ingin jumpamu tetapi aku telah dilarang untuk membuat demikian kerana semua it telah berakhir(Aku akan berada di situ).

Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,semua itu dusta.

Aku tidak tahu tetapi sekarang aku tahu aku memerlukanmu.

Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,dalam kemarahan.

Aku telah mengeluarkan kata-kata yang melukakanmu tanpa pengetahuan,menyebabkan aku meninggalkanmu
Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,semua itu dusta
Aku meminta maaf(Aku meminta maaf) kerana cintakanmu(terlalu cintakanmu)
Aku meminta maaf kerana terlalu cintakanmu,bolehkah kamu meninggalkan aku dan melupakan aku sedikit demi sedikit,supaya hanya aku berasa dalam kesakitan?

Aku dedikasi semua dalam lagu ini untukmu(orang lain masih belum tahu).

Dariku,tanpa pengetahuan orang lain.(ya,kata-kataku itu dusta).

Aku ditinggalkan keseorangan di tengah-tengah semua ini.

Surat-surat perpisahan yang dipenuhi dengan renyutan dan lipatan dalam saku aku,hai,(dan kebiasaanku untuk memanggilmu dan sedang fikir di mana kamu berada.
Aku akan berubah,aku akan ketawa apa-apa sahaja mulai hari ini.

Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,semua itu dusta.

Aku tidak tahu tetapi sekarang aku tahu aku memerlukanmu.

Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,dalam kemarahan.

Oh oh oh oh oh,aku berharap semua itu mimpi.

Oh oh oh oh oh,kerana aku hanya memberikan hanya itu sahaja.

Tinggalkan itu sayang,aku masih tidak dapat melupakanmu.

Tidak,aku tidak dapat melakukan,sampai hariku berakhir,ya.
Sudahkah kamu pulih daripada parut-parut yang aku tinggalkan untukmu?Aku meminta maaf kerana aku tidak dapat melakukan apa-apa sahaja untukmu.

Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,semua itu dusta.

Aku tidak tahu tetapi sekarang aku tahu aku memerlukanmu.

Aku meminta maaf kerana cintakanmu,dalam kemarahan.

hi there

2010-07-22T04:09:00.001-05:00

Thanks for someone's concern with my blog.

I can't believe that there will be any requests to update my blog!

The funny part was that she actually asked me to write something about her.

Anyway, I shouldn't be abandoned my blog.

Currently busy with all the tests and assignments,

and the 'good' news is I failed the my first ever test in UTAR!

Oh great, I think I should really reconsider my study plan already.

Plus, I'm kinda lazy to prepare all the things for applying universities.

Now, it's the real good news, for those who like The Golden Arch,

it is now under construction and hopefully to be finished within this year.

Yea, we have one more place to go during midnight!

And I can eat my favorite Chocolate Cornetto Sundae

Ahhhh..can't wait for the day to come.

Hey..hey..my hair is now long again,

thinking of perming my hair again,

or should I cut it short?

hmm..gonna headache again in deciding this again.

OK, now it's the time for the main purpose for this update,

she is 'friend' of my friend and she is tall, SLIM and has a pretty good looking face too.

"hello, are you satisfied now? LOL"

I guess she shall leaving comment here as anonymous.

We didn't chat or talk even we actually did see each other face to face.

Everything starts when I added her in FB and something very strange happened,

surprisingly we chat like no stranger at all!

Talking crap at all time and even at the first time.

How's My Day In Kampar?

2010-06-07T11:44:00.000-05:00

Well, I've been here for 1 week. Just to share that this is how you are going to live here if you choose to study here.

If you like typical campus life, then Kampar is a great place for you.
The environment is just great for studying,
the campus is huge! It takes time even ride from one block to another,
personally, the canteen is a huge bonus because it faces the lake and it is nice to have lunch there.
The hostel is great to stay, it's big and cozy,
however, it would be perfect is the Internet is fast and smooth.
Will decorate my room soon with wallpapers.

If you are the one who always thinking of going out to have some fun, then my advice is, you should NEVER come here.
Basically, it is just like a jail with the size of a town.
You have only TESCO to shop,
no cinema, food that is definitely need some time to adapt.

What to do at night?
The answer is NOTHING besides riding your bicycle around the hostel,
sitting beside lake side watching people fishing,
walk here and there, chit chat and picnic.

OK..basically, that's all for my day in Kampar.
hmmm..is it ok for me to regret now?

it's time to come to an end

2010-05-18T10:37:00.000-05:00

When the time comes, there is no way to stop it from happening.

Finally I have made up my mind and to put a stop to the matter.

I do not want to hurt her anymore,

I just couldn't think of any reason that makes me wanted to be together with her,

I'm just too bad to be her love one. She must have suffer a lot during the 1 year time.

So, it is better that we just put a STOP for this, although it hurts,

but it is still the best choice because both of us are just not mean to be together.

I hope you understand.

Don't let tears drop from your eyes,it is just not worth for you to do that.

Don't worry, there must be a man that will love you with true heart.

Be strong, girl.

Sorry for everything that hurts.

Thank you for loving me.

it's been a long time!!!

2010-05-08T12:53:00.000-05:00

I can't believe that my last post was actually few months ago!
It is really been a long time I did not post any new article,
to be honest, not even come and visit my blog since the previous post.

A lot of things had changed, major change will be curly hair, and now back to normal again but I swear I will perm my hair again in no time because I simply love curly hair!

Finished my 2-year diploma course in Penang and is doing nothing now besides preparing for my degree program. So, gotta say goodbye and thank you to everything that is with me in 2 years because those are the things that make up part of my life. Goodluck to my friends in whatever they are pursuing.

Will be going to UTAR for my degree initially, but thank God,I received a big surprise and gift that allow me to do something that is never been thought in my mind before, but the gift is given a little too late as I missed a lot of things. Yet, there are a lot of things to prepare too.

Life just have to move on, you cannot expect something to last forever, the world is ruled by realism, there's only input provided when there's benefits.

There are too much uncertainties, who knows what will happen next?
Hope and pray for the best.

Lastly, it's Mother's Day!
Happy Mother's Day.
Gotta think what should I buy for my mama. Any ideas?

back again

2010-01-30T09:29:00.000-06:00

lol..

it has been ages i did not update my blog..

not even visit my own blog for few..months i think..

just to be responsible..

i am here again to update..

I've just finished my final exam..

well, this time..

i do not have much confidence..

JAVA paper

it is a total disaster for most of us..

let's hope I won't fail..

I should be thankful even I get a 'B'

so soon after exam, holiday starts

wondering where should I go this time..

Cameron Highland?

Melacca? *again*

I think I've mentioned it for few months already

but still I did not go there..

lastly..

campus / college tour?

It is time to choose where to continue my studies

somehow..

my holiday is just boring

so feel free to date me out..

anytime..

how are you???

2009-12-25T10:15:00.000-06:00

Merry Christmas

sorry for abandoned my blog for some time..

because I was just too lazy to post anything

I permed my hair last week

don ask me why

because I don know why too

sometimes things happen for no reasons

comments from friends are

the hair turns me become a Korean unexpectedly

I was a lil bit regret initially

but now

I'm cool with that..^^v

check out my fb album

I had a very simple Christmas eve celebration yesterday

BBQ at Paradise beach

and..thats all..

Gurney drive is not in our consideration

because there must be people doing crazy things

and yes..

it did..

i think gurney drive should be banned for several years

why the hack are those people fighting the cops??

why can't they just celebrate in a peaceful way??

just take a look at this video..what a shame..

2010 is coming soon after Christmas

if you do not have any event

here..i would like to introduce an activity for you

it's the

One Population One World (1P1W)

it's a world record attempt flash mob!!!

so many people are going to dance together

here's the tutorial

so..do you guys interested??

if yes..see you there then..

right or wrong?good or bad?

2009-12-02T04:49:00.000-06:00

How do you define PERFECT???

basically,it differs from one another..

but somehow, all of us know that there is no way for a person to act perfectly

one is a perfect lover

when one is willing to do anything that are good for another for the sake of their relationship.

one is a perfect parent

when one is willing to do anything that are good for one's children for the sake of family.

one is a perfect employee

when on is willing to do anything that are good for one's company for the sake of profit.

Human tends to make mistakes.

Human tends to do something beyond the ordinary.

Humans tends to do something against the rules.

In real world

you can do wrong things

as long as you are not caught

you can do wrong things

as long as you know how to control yourself

as long as you can control yourself

smoking is just fine

Why government encourages not to smoke??

because they know human fails to control themselves

as long as you can control yourself

taking drugs is just fine

Why taking drug is illegal??

because they know human fails to control themselves

as long as you can control yourself

drinking alcohol is just fine

Why drink and drive is illegal??

because they know human fails to control themselves

as long as you can control yourself

everything that is bad is just fine

you can do anything you like

even it is beyond the laws and norms

just do whatever you like but don get caught

busy weeks

2009-11-21T11:03:00.002-06:00

I've finished my 3 tests this week and

there are a lot of things yet to be completed

Week 7 - Week 10

it is the peak season of all semesters

all coursework need to be completed during that period of time

grrrhh..2 more tests on Monday and Tuesday

assignments and presentation after next week

worst thing is..i forgot to bring one of my book home!!!

how am i going to study without book??

oh my god..gotta be study for whole day when i go back there

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not just that
Malaysia Qualification Agency (MQA) is coming to visit our college in week 9
and sadly enough
I was selected for the interview session
I'm quite excited actually because I am curious how they conduct their evaluations on college
I do not know what other benefits will our college gain if we are accredited
besides getting PTPTN loans
I am wondering whether when we are going to apply for job in the future
will the employers actually care what kind of qualification you have?? or
did your qualification is accredited/certified my those academic agencies??
this will only be answered when i'm getting a job in the future
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xD
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Birthday of the month again

We have Jin Yan + Ching Wen + Jeffrey + Lee Jing + Wee Kiat + Kee Sheng + Mama + Jenny

Happy Birthday to them..

good luck for those taking STPM

good luck for those having final exam
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if today was your last day

2009-11-14T10:09:00.000-06:00

"if today was your last day

tomorrow was to late.."

aha..

quote from the song from Nickelback

since current hot topic is

yea..

it was really hot right now

everyone is rushing to cinema for this movie

how would it be when at the end of the world??

all of us wanted to know

how are we going to die

what will happen to the Earth

so question

what would you do if you are informed that

our country has no longer be able to secure us??

what would be in your mind when the time you see

1552m of tsunami is coming to you??

when the ground is shaking like hell?

personally

i think that there shouldn't have any survivor at the end

i don think that human technology can withstand the power of nature

the movie should end with everyone died

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had a little surprise this week

surprisingly it was from the lecturer who most of us hate the most

MISS WOO

as usual

when she finished her lecture

most of us think that it was the time for Q&A

and her favorite lucky draw

few numbers of students will be picked

and answer her questions

unfortunately

i was picked!!!

fortunately

this time

it was not Q&A

she was giving us a small little gift - PRETZELS

thank god

the pretzels don't taste good either..lol

i'll have 3 tests next week

3..it is 3..

monday..wednesday..friday

ahh...there is no way for me to have fun..

damn..

well..maybe i should be thankful enough

because SPM and STPM are coming really really soon

so..good luck to them and me as well..hehe

nostalgia

2009-11-06T10:12:00.000-06:00

an ordinary day..

a day to go back to hometown..

doing nothing at home..

besides TV..

nothing else..

after dinner

i got nothing to do again

so..i drove and went no where

actually i love to drive alone

listening to music

speeding on the road

drive to wherever i like

so where have i been???

autocity --> bukit minyak

thinking to go home from permatang tinggi

but unfortunately

"dang..dang..dang..dang..dang..."

railway gate is coming down..

so..i make a u-turn

now..plan B

going to bukit tambun

that is where all the nostalgia comes

bukit tambun

a place where i used to be here quite often

it is the place where my ex stays

thinking of all the things that we have been gone through

going to her big house and chit chat with her family

going out and have dinner

teach her cousin to dance

and lots more

that's why people say

first love is always the sweetest

however

"nothing's ever built to last"

we ended our 3 years relationship

with kinda unhappy ending

well..all i can say is..

THAT'S WHAT LIFE IS

then..

headed to highway and went back to autocity

i was driving my car at 140km\h

and that's my first time driving so fast

it was exciting

but i'm wondering when will my old engine blown up

my car was shaking like hell

it was like the wind can easily tear the skin of my car anytime

haha..a good near death experience

before going back home

went to my gf house

i was just pass by

thinking all the things we've been so far

it was sweet too

from the day we knew each other until today

our first year anniversary is coming too

i have a question to ask

"what make(s) a woman valuable?"

feel free to answer

i'm curious

nothing more than ORDINARY

2009-10-30T10:18:00.001-05:00

Notice that I have been a while did not update my blog.This is just simply because nothing special happened and everything that happened was nothing but ordinary. Going to college early in the morning, attending classes and having fun with friends.Sometimes, college life is boring. This is especially true when you have no money with you!!haha..Money makes the world go round and I have spending on maintenance for my old broke car.

Talking about my dancing class, again...the class was suffering..I am still working hard to get used to it. There are really a lot of things yet to learn. It makes me wonder, am I insane??Why on earth I am volunteering myself for the torture??I thought dancing suppose to be relax and fun. Well, I am not going to be a superb dancer, I am dancing because I wan to dance. However, try to think the other way, if I wanted to dance, why don't I make that effort to learn??All the blood and sweat will finally turn into something worthy.

Year 2 semester 2 week 5 already..9 more weeks to go. After that, 1 more semester to go and I'm going to graduate from TARC. Where to go after this??? I really need lots of advice..I need that desperately.

The next windows..Windows 7 is out!!!And I'm using it now..all I can say is..satisfying..new style of taskbar..new features of aero..it is now very convenient and I like it very much.It is a lot better than vista..the speed is obviously faster. You all should try it out..

happy deepavali

2009-10-17T10:36:00.000-05:00

haha..

i just simply do not know what title to put..

since i can only think of today is deepavali..

so..i just put it as the title..

regarding my result

i would say it was satisfying

already good enough

2 more semester to go!!!

wondering where to go after diploma

from next week onward

i am going to shift to another class

because my class has too many students(27)

~well,compared to other classes with only 10+~

so..my friends and i were volunteered to shift

starting from next week

i will be joining new group of friends and new environment

my dancing class was horrible last time

as my instructor asked me to change to another class

which is more advanced

the class was so different from my past experience

my instructor is more like training a soldier

it was a total disaster for me

especially the split(stretching)

oh my god..

can you imagine

when you are spreading your legs

and somebody is sitting on you???!!!

my tears was running out from my eyes and i was in pain

it was the longest 30 seconds in my life

at the end of the class

i was exhausted

i can hardly move my limbs

well..that is part of the process

it is important for make your moves look good

so..i had no choice.. (:-(

post of the week

2009-10-09T11:10:00.000-05:00

alright

i am back here again

to tell you my recent life

during secondary school

all of us wonder how would a college life be?

some say good

some say bad

i do satisfied with my life now

freedom of doing anything

but somehow

i miss my secondary school time

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gasoline again to celebrate friend's birthday

just a simple celebration

with a birthday song

but without a cake

the birthday boy

is the one in the middle

Douglas

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the next day

second day of semester

with no reason

we just headed to redbox

maybe for reunion purpose

a simple gathering after 2 weeks of holiday

kinda lame huh..haha

the J brother - John and Jack

we are not GAY!!!

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FARLIM pasar malam

one of my favorite place to go

because there is a lot of food

i can eat eat eat as much as i can

and the other reason is

there is many chicks hanging around there..haha

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as i had mentioned previously

i planned to go for dancing class

it has been 2 years i stopped practicing

finally i went to FRESH BEAT ACADEMY and registered

i was so excited in the first class

even though it is just a PRE-CLASS

listen to the beats and facing the mirror

i just feel GREAT

worst thing was

my muscles are killing me

it was terrible when i want to move

i cant even hold my steering well

yet..went for G-FORCE(3D) after dinner

3D is cool..awesome

i like it very much

i cant imagine how would it be when watching Final Destination in 3D

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3 more days!!!

result is coming out 3 more days

3 days to go

i heard that i failed my maths paper

hope it's a hoax

year 2 sem 2

2009-10-04T10:38:00.000-05:00

today is the last day of my sem break
hope everything will be smooth and fine
cant wait for more challenges..haha

one of the things that i cant wait is..
i'm going back to dance..
i'm so excited..
i'm going to register tomorrow..

LETS DANCE

langkawi + taiping

2009-09-29T11:10:00.002-05:00

i'm back from my holiday..
spent a week in LANGKAWI and TAIPING..
ok..lets start from LANGKAWI..

first day..
we gathered at BUTTERWORTH JETTY
going to LANGKAWIis really time consuming..
here's some details..
hope it may help those who wanted to go..

bus from butterworth to alor setar 1hour RM10
taxi from alor setar to kuala perlis 1hour RM60
boat from kuala perlis to langkawi 1 hour RM16

when we reached LANGKAWI..
it was already 3pm++..
but first thing first..we need to get out transport..
since we have 12 persons..
we need 3 cars but..we wanted to stay together..
so..we asked for a VAN that can fit all of us at RM200 per day
the van is totally broke..
hmm..no choice..thats the only vehicle that satisfies our need..
but god damn...the van is out of gas..
called the person and filled the gas..

headed to hotel for check-in which is located in KUAH TOWN,have rest and prepare for dinner..
we planned to have our dinner at PANTAI CENANG..
we thought everything will be going fine..
surprisingly..
most of the restaurant closed at 6PM!!!
it is kinda frustrating..everybody is starving and hardly find a restaurant..
finally..there was a chinese restaurant..
RM20 for each person..free flow of drinks and rice..
all of us kept on adding rice..and the boss was staring at us..

on the way back to hotel..
suddenly..the van just stopped moving..
no matter how hard i hit the gas pedal..
it just wont move..nothing happen
shit..spending our time..waiting for the person in charge to come..
everyone is sitting beside the road..
from that time onward..i know..this is going to be a NOT-SO-HAPPY trip
because we have rented a damn fucking van..
so..a little advice..don save money on your transport..
it is better to pay more rather than wasting time waiting for your car to be repaired..

after repaired..within 1km..
the van broke down AGAIN!!!
the same problem..
damn..that was really annoying..
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second day
we're going to PANTAI CENANG for our breakfast at BREAKFAST BAR
unluckily..
our van broke down for the THIRD TIME!!!
well..this is expected..automatically..
the phone is called and we are sitting in the van AGAIN..
wasting our time..
to prevent the same thing happen again..
we went to UNDERWATER WORLD to minimize the chances of broke down again..
thats all for second day..
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third day
this is the last day we stay and we're going to LANGKAWI CABLE CAR
i personally love that place very much..
the view is really nice and the wind is so strong and cold..
especially the SKYWALK..it is a MUST TRY..
of course..you need to pay before getting the benefit...
you have to walk for a distance before reaching the SKYWALK..
as a result..we spent most of the time up there..

next..ISLAND HORSING..
we just spent a lil time over there because it was too expensive..
RM45 for only 15 minutes..

on the way back to hotel..
this time..another big problem happened..
one of the tire was burst..
haih..really an unlucky trip..i swear i wont save any money on transprot in LANGKAWI anymore...

since we spent most of the time repairing the van..
we decided to stay for ONE MORE DAY..
hoping everything will be fine after changing another van..

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forth day
today..everything was fine..
the van was going well and all of us were happy..
we went for ISLAND HOPPING where we were brought to 3 islands
LAKE OF PREGNANT MAIDEN..EAGLE FEEDING and PULAU BERAS BASAH
it was nothing actually..but still..i felt happy because finally..
we can enjoy without worrying any problems..
i prefer EAGLE FEEDING..
that was the first time i saw an EAGLE closely..

next..SEVEN WELL WATERFALL..
another place of excitement..
the water is freezing..
the view is pretty..but it is kinda dangerous because the rocks are slippery..
one of us slipped for few times..
and it was a long way before you reach the WATERFALL..
the road is very very steep..

CONCLUSION..
sorry for typing in plain text..i'm just too lazy to format
view photos in my facebook
i've summarised my LANGKAWI trip..if u wan to know more..just ask me personally..
this trip cost me almost RM600
and i think i'll go next time..few years after maybe..
because there are still a lot of places i wish to go..
if one of you can drive van..8 persons will be perfect..
otherwise..multiple of 5 persons will be suitable for car

i'm back

2009-09-22T00:09:00.001-05:00

hello there..

sorry for not updating myself for so long..

my holiday is fully packed..

so..i got no time to come here..

but now..

finally i have the time manage my blog..

well..i cant actually remember what i have done for past few weeks..

I've finished my final exam..

and this time..my result is going to be terrible!!

damn..my GPA is going to be lowered this time

ah..just forget it..

as soon as i came back to hometown..

started to prepare for my VAD8 anniversary dinner

then..spent whole day at the hall doing all that craps..

still..we enjoyed that night..

i thought i can have a good rest the next day..

so..went for hair cut..

as you can see in those photos..my hair is shit

suddenly a call from mama

asking me to go back for family dinner at parit buntar..

i thought it will be only for my family..

surprisingly..NO!!

it was all from my grandfather's family

lots lots lots of them

i met all my cousins there

those that used to play together last time

and haven't see each other for ages

another night full of joy and fun

yesterday i was on duty for hari raya

stand by for any emergencies

but..there were 0 cases out there

4 of us were staying inside from 4pm until 12am the base and doing nothing

we should feel glad because everything is fine out there

i'm going to langkawi tomorrow..

so..see you after 3 days..

bye

weekly update

2009-08-30T00:51:00.006-05:00

what a crazy and fun week i had..

thinking of relieve myself a week before my exam..

basically is just movie..movie and movie..

Monday

I can't actually remember the reason I watched movie..

soon after class..my classmates and I went to cinema for

"I LOVE YOU, BETH COOPER"

sadly enough, we are staying in Malaysia

many of the explicit scenes have been cut

wondering they still label it with 18sx

what the hack

the main actress is hot

but she is kinda fat

(even though she is the thinnest among her friends)

went to GASOLINE time square for dinner with my girl

and for study purpose too since I have a revision test

I was thinking to study there

the surrounding is just not condusive

it was dark and cold

so we study in the dark and I found out something

my highlight is luminiscent!!

kinda cool..lol

thats my girl..she is just too shy..

gasoline rocks!!

Tuesday

suddenly I was addicted to movies plus the recommendation from josh

again..we went to cinema again for movie

this time

"DISTRICT 9"

the poster is damn cool..love it

and i love this movie too

the story is great

i'm wondering why the aliens look like insects

i thought they should look cool but it just disappointed me

but still..it is a great movie

at night i thought i got nothing to do

suddenly a window popped up

it was john asking to go to the beach

well..ok..since i got nothing to do

grab my girl and headed to the beach

beach is always favorite of TARCIAN

we talk..talk..talk..until 1am and went back to sleep

Wednesday

it's wednesday

FARLIM NIGHT MARKET!!

my girl always wanted to go there

again I called up the same gang

headed to the night market

but i do not know where is it..

so I turned on my GPS and the GPS leads me to no where!!

because i just simply do not know what to search..lol

finanlly..

i was able to reach there with my excellent build-in exploring skill..haha

I am even better than a GPS device

then we started to hunt for food

well..i bought a lot

out of sudden..strong winds started to blow

oh my god..rain is coming!!

all the hawkers were busy keeping their things

but wait..we were having our dinner half way!!

saw many people rushing back to their cars

so...no choice..we had to go..

when the wind stops..

we thought the sky was not likely to rain

so my gang and I continue shop for food

our judgement was wrong!!!the rain came out of sudden and what's next??

RUN FOR LIFE!!!!

i can see the rain coming from the other street and it was so fast..haha

what an exciting day

Thursday

yes..movie again

this day..even crazier..

we watched 2 movies!!hell yeah..

it was all because of maggie..

she told me that UP was a nice cartoon movie

which basically is not in my list of interest

I was wondering..how can a cartoon movie touched our maggie??

so..i decided to pay for the ticket and check it out

yes..she was right..it was a touching love story

a couple love each other since they first met

even until his wife is dead..

the husband swear to complete his wife's dream

building their dream house at paradise fall*if not mistaken*

next..

KUNGFU CYBORG

this movie SUCKS!!!

i would advice not to watch and waste your money for a shit movie

there is nothing else i can say besides SHIT

it was really a waste spending money for a shit

i think the main point of this movie is just showing off the computer effects in chinese movie industry

Friday

oh yea..no class for friday..

finally i can relax for one whole day..

staying for one more day because there is a class on saturday

just before dinner time..

i was told the class is cancelled

wtf..i am staying here one more day for the class

and i was told the fcking class is cancelled??damn..

Saturday(Yesterday)

home sweet home in the morning

again a busy day of mine

need to attend a meeting for CHARITY DINNER

and celebrated min liang's birthday at WINTER's WARMER sunway carnival

oh damn..

now i only realise that i didnt even wish him..lol

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIN LIANG

hope that it is not too late..haha

alright..

after the meeting..went to sri rambai foodcourt

which I have not been there for ages since secondary school

the foodcourt kept many memories of mine during that time

next..autocity!!!

for wasting my time and a lil bit of study

of course i'm not going alone

get my girl and i need her to by my side

i just love to have her beside me

touching her..pinching her..holding her

even without talking

i feel good as long as i have my girl beside

I planned to go McD but it was full

so..changed to starbucks

with my laptop on and posting my status in facebook and msn..haha

invited 2 of my gang to join us

so..we talk talk talk again until i saw the worker

her eyes were telling me

"excuse me, it is time for you to go, we are now closing"

duh..i love the sofa inside starbucks..

it is just way too comfortable..haha

not satisfied??continue at McD

but we didnt stay there for long

my girl has to be home after my favorite

CORNETTO CHOCOLATE SUNDAE CUP

lets end with the pictures of my girl

^^v

she is gorgeous..isn't she??haha

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phew..i think i have written a lot...

alright..thats all for my weekly update

thank you for spending time reading my post

good luck for you and me in exam

study mode

2009-08-21T05:45:00.002-05:00

thinking to write something here..

trying to relax myself..

because i was frustrated doing my JAVA programming assignment..

it drives me crazy...!!

i was almost fainted when the compiler says..

there is 100 errors in my program!!

well..that's the fate of a computer science student..

your program can go completely wrong even just a little mistake..

especially all those :"><.,}{)(*&^%$#@!

final exam is around the corner!!

oh gosh..

i cant believe that i've studied for so long..

2 more semesters left and i'll be gratuated..

woohoo..

year2 sem1 is really a busy sem for me..

especially all the things pop up during the end of semester..

lots of test..lots of assignments..lots of revision exercises..

phew..i can hardly breath for past few weeks..

finally..everything is over..

JAVA assignment??

i've decided..to GIVE UP..

better put more effort on final exam..

no point making myself suffer..

i am now thinking..

to get back to the dancefloor..

out of no reasons..

i just want to dance again..

but then..

i am afraid that after i get back..

my studies will be affected..

or maybe i should think that..

sports made smarter person?haha

go for it..should I??

take care

2009-08-14T09:03:00.002-05:00

hmm..

many of my friends are now sick..

cough,flu,sorethroat,fever,headache..

all the syntoms of H1N1..

so..don take it easy..

if you are having one of the syntoms..

please seek for medical attention immediately..

there is no way for you think that you are strong and H1N1 will never come to you..

don ever think that..

wear a mask if you are going to a crowded place..

take care of your personal hygiene..

my fever comes out of sudden on thursday..

i felt very very sick..

it was such a horrible feeling..

feel cold but sweating..

and the headache is the worst..

it makes me wanna scream..

it was really really horrible

why do i fall sick at this critical moment..

really irritating..

sick when i got lots of tests..

how am i going to study??

arh...

i think i better stop typing and sleep..

my headache is really killing me..

help me..!!

Post of the week

2009-08-08T10:13:00.004-05:00

well well well..

after the short post about super junior..

here I am again..

hmm..

eventually..most of the tests have been finished..

3 more tests left!!

but sadly

after all the tests..

final exam is coming..

oh gosh..really fast..

i am not even prepared yet..

there are still many movies that i haven't watch..

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someone stole my shoes..

damn unlucky..

who the shit is that??

duh..so no choice..

have to buy a new one..

and..this time..i can fullfil my wish..

to buy a converse shoes..haha

but then i not really like that kind of shoes..

maybe my foots are broad and the shoes is kinda narrow..

it hurts my toes when i walk..

gonna buy another sport shoes..

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yea..Will Pan came to our college!!

wohoo..i'm excited even though he is not my idol..

but in fact..he is really handsome..

real person is much more handsome than the cover of his album..xD...

we've waited for almost an hour..

seriously..not much people at there..

here's the photos..

~~sorry for my poor image quality~~

stage

interview session

singing+dancing

~~the mic keep on malfunction,he seemed very pek chek~~

gaming session

handshaking

~~no autograpgh because his hand is injured, just a stupid little sticker and no camera is allowed on stage!!~~

SUPER JUNIOR - SORRY,SORRY

2009-08-06T10:53:00.002-05:00

short post..

suddenly..i love this song..

it makes me wanna move my body..

somebody please teach me..

sorry..sorry..sorry..sorry...

st anne..

2009-07-26T10:33:00.004-05:00

st anne duty..

this is the first time i went there for duty..

it's very hot there..

and many people there..

95% of them are indian..

so..actually not much hot chicks there..

as I'm not interested in indians..lol

the buldings are just gorgeous!!

even if there are, they are all kids..duh..

but luckily..i got something to do..

many people fell down from the stairs..

strain their legs..

and there was an indian boy..

fell into drain..haha..

so..i attended him and it is damn far..

the boy..is fat..

even there are 4 or 5 persons helping

but still we can hardly move him out from the drain..

dumbass...

don worry..there is no H1N1..

i'm still healthy..no fever no flu..

busy days

2009-07-18T02:09:00.002-05:00

i was planning update yesterday night..
but..something is kicking my butt..because
my laptop turned to be not functioning well out of sudden..
so..i have to format my laptop..
then..i've wasted my night time to get all these things done..
actually..i did not need to spend so much time..
but..i do not know why..a message pops up in my mind
"this time...maybe i should downgrade to XP"
since everybody says vista sucks..
so..
as an IT freak..i should go and figure it out..
however..when the installation of XP is finishing..
it asked for product key..
shit..
it's on the cover of the DVD but..i've thrown it away somehow..
duh..i have to install vista back again..
conclusion is = i spent my time to do all the silly things

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i'm going to get busy in next few days..
because..all of the assignments need to be submitted in these few weeks..
and worse..
there is a test..and it is going to be lots of study..damn..
everything comes all together during these weeks..
i am now hardly to breath..
really have to come out with a time table..
to manage my time already..

when to start study
when to do homework
when to watch movie
when to do assignment
when to swim with classmates

ahh..god..can u please gimme an extra hour per day for me??

home sweet home

2009-07-10T10:24:00.002-05:00

ah..

what a relieve..

i've finally at my home..

after a heavy rain..traffic congestion..

shit..

it is exhausting..to be a driver..

but..there is no way i do not go home this week..

plus..

mama asked me why i did not go home last week..

and i was just blank..simply don know what should i answer..

well..

i did not update my blog when i was at hostel

simply because..everyday..

i'll do the same things..

wake up>bath>breakfast>college>

lunch>bath>computer>sleep>

dinner>computer>bath>sleep

yes..that's my days in a week..

but of course sometimes..

i do hang out with my classmates..

watch movies..ICE AGE..

it's freaking funny..but still..the story is so lousy..

a gang of animals..going to save a stupid sloth..

my favorite character is..the BUCK..

this weasel is awesome..haha..

what the hack

2009-06-27T10:26:00.002-05:00

VS
what the hack..

that fella defeat ham hsiao??

i cant believe that..

his songs are just shit..

how can he got the award..

arh..

so..what you think??

home sweet home

2009-06-26T09:28:00.002-05:00

yoohoo..

finally i am home

tmr i do not have class

as it is convocation

so tmr class is shifted to today afternoon

and hence i decided to come back

i'm so happy to see my kiki again

hmm..that is the reason why people own a pet

because..it makes you happy..

but still..i'm feeling tired

i just want to lie on my bed for few days

i got 3 tests next week

arh..i;m just too lazy to study..

and next part of assignments are coming soon too..

so..no more playing around..

or..i should say..play less

plus the A(H1N1) seemed attacking our country..

better stay at home or hostel

afraid of that shit..

maybe we should start wear a mask when going out

hmm..how much does it cost btw??

if you are infected..

you will be quarantined and doing nothing in the hospital..

no way..

went for TRANSFORMER on wednesday..

the cinema was crowded with people..

the movie was so nice..

i was amazed by the animations..

damn cool..

i love the voice of optimus prime..

so cool..

i thought the voice for all the transformers is made by computer

surprisingly..it wasn't..

wow..

how cool..if a person with the sound of optimus prime talking to you

when i went for class this morning

a news shocked me..

i was told by lecturer that the KING OF POP - MICHAEL JACKSON has passed away

even hitz.fm keeps playing his songs for the whole day

well..actually there is no need for us to feel sad..

people will die anytime..

and people with great contributions will always be remembered

rest in peace..MJ..

all the best

2009-06-21T10:03:00.002-05:00

hmmm..

dilemma...dilemma

life is just full of dilemma

but no matter what

you still need to choose one of them

and sacrifice the other

and that is what we call LIFE

many of my friends are going to local university next week

but unfortunately

i did not go back this week

so i missed the meet up

feel sorry to them

hopefully i can see them soon

and maybe the 'soon' is few years later

no worries

if you guys came back or want to find me

just gimme a call or text me

all the best for their studies

and keep in touch

今天不回家

2009-06-19T23:42:00.002-05:00

hahaa..

here i am again

i am fine

i am good

i am happy

staying here with all my crazy housemates

i cant really remember what i have done for previous weeks

but i know it was full of joyness

even though i got 3 assignments to be completed and summitted on next week

now..i can pretty much handle assignments easily

because all the subjects that i study for this semester is related to each other

they are all about SYSTEM..DATABASE

i'm not going back to home this week

since going back is just a waste of time

and escaping from other activities

this is simply the best way

even though father's day is on sunday

what's next?

cinema ? transformer - revenge of the fallen is a must to watch next week

club? sadly enough,nobody wants to go with me

beach? nah..i've been there for many times for the first few weeks

anything else to do??

lots of things

2009-06-05T09:56:00.002-05:00

started all my classes this week

and i got lots of thing to do

homework..and other stuffs

i have one lecturer which treat us like a child

she likes to give command

she had 2 extra lectures just to tell us what we should and shouldnt do

huh..i thought college should be free and easy

the damn lecturer has wrong desire to command,giving instructions

who the hell do you think you are??

stop giving instructions and command!!miss woo

writing all the numbers makes me crazy

i just don understand what is she going to do with the fucking numbering in every things she wants

the worst is..we need to copy all the questions in tutorial and write the answer

god damn..

teachers didnt even ask us to copy questions when doing homework in primary school..

i'm tired

i do not wan to come home every week anymore

suddenly i prefer to stay at my hostel rather than my home

coming back home is just simply a waste of time

and i have class on saturday

feel sorry to my mom and dad

another thing is

if i went home, there will be meetings and duties from VAD

the only way to escape is don come back

i don wan to involve in any activities

just don put my name in the committee list

i can promise that i will not do my job

so..just stay away from me!!

weekly report

2009-05-29T11:07:00.000-05:00

23/5-sat

new sem starting soon..
return to hostel,our new hostel.
went gurney at night and we played pool until late night.
went to beach.

24/5-sun

prangin mall in the afternoon for Eric Lim，林健辉
我听见有人叫你宝贝
pretty nice sound.future star.

25/5-mon

first day to college.there were many juniors.
new lecturers, new subjects, new rules.
60% exam + 40% coursework.
have to do homework and assignment properly.
40% is not a joke.
we went to gurney at night again.
this time is for movie.
sakae as dinner and night at the museum 2.
damn funny.

26/5-tue

i have 4 computer related subjects this sem.
fundamental of computer network
analysis and system design
object oriented programming
database
these are going to be tough for me.
hope everything will be fine.
have to buy books.
cost me rm200++ if i buy all.

27/5-wed

all lecturec today,damn boring.
1 mathematics subject.
probability and statistics.
taught by a young lady.
she speaks damn fast.
but we forgive her because she is pretty.lol

28/5-thu

only 1 hour break
went to canteen
heard that the college has changed the owner
the canteen were full with juniors
more food are provided
and basically..nicer than the previous one..

29/5-fri

realised that i have copied timetable wrongly
i have class on saturday!!
damn..not going home every week anymore
since..i like my hostel as well..hehe
i've spent too much this week
books, movies and food
so..went to ATM for withdrawal
but i have forgotten the PIN number
shit..now..my card is locked!!

going to ULTIMAXXX dancing competition tmr
just to support bgirl mag's team
cant wait...

welcome to the next level

2009-05-18T09:30:00.004-05:00

my result has been released today

i went to the website

but it was just too slow to load just the mainpage

so i waited until night

lets welcome me to the next level

i've finished my first year of study

here's my overall result

not bad huh?haha

school is going to open soon too

i am happy that i can proceed to 2nd year

some of my friends are not able to proceed to year 2

so i hope they will study hard

we cannot survive without a cert

please study hard for the sake of your future

new year of study

new hostel

new life

new housemate

lets work them on together!!

facebook trick

2009-05-12T23:47:00.003-05:00

here is a trick that i found from forum..

after you log in to your facebook account

press

UP, UP, DOWN, DOWN,LEFT, RIGHT,LEFT,RIGHT,b,a,ENTER and click your MOUSE

anywhere within the page

you will find something interesting

damn hot

2009-05-12T10:13:00.001-05:00

what happen to the earth right now??

it is freaking hot today!!!

this fucking hot weather is making me crazy!!!

damn..

why weren't the guy shoot all the 10 suns??

hot hot hot...

ahh...

what i've done

2009-05-11T10:54:00.002-05:00

phew..

what a tiring day huh..

i've been working around for whole day..

today was the day to clean the hostel up and repair all the broken

because the owner command us to do so..

so..early in the morning

picked up my girl and we headed to 7-village guo tiao tang(七廊粿条汤）

which is somewhere in bukit tengah..

and sad to say that

the food were just cannot satisfied my taste buds

the best breakfast for me is always

cornflakes, milk and toast

i like this clock very much

then went to pick up my housemates

and we are ready to go

the traffic was so smooth

just as a reminder

***Any TnG card that is bought after 1st of April will not be offered 20% of tol fee***

we reached and start to clean all the things up while waiting for the repairman

surprisingly

he was an old man..really old that i couldnt believe that he still can climb up so high

to fix the toilet light

and more surprising was

repairing a water host and a light bulb cost RM80!!!wth..

were he trying to cheat us?

just because we are students?

we cleaned the hostel and we have few more hours to go

so my girl and i went to gurney and watched X-Men Origin

it was great but the ending was a lilttle bit sudden

it just ended there without any 'conclusion'

headed to northam beach to have our dinner

i saw a lot of whites at there for the first time

and i love the view

so i just simply took some photos

time to fetch our new hostel's owner at prangin

she is a nice person

thanks for her kindness

our new hostel is perfect

fully furnished and it cost only rm650 per month

we pay the first month rental and took the keys from her

finally went back to out sweet home

tired and goodnight